My little miracle

Esin TEKİN

Motherhood is an experience many women want to have. Some have this experience so effortlessly and some even leave the babies that they had so easily but reluctantly and disappear. It’s difficult or rather impossible to understand how they end up in such situations! Becoming a mother is such a beautiful thing. To feel a living thing inside you who is growing with each passing day; to feel the excitement of his or her first movements and reaching that day when you are going to hold him or her in your hands – it is truly a miracle.

This is a miracle that many women want to experience, look forward to and would even give her right arm for. Only those who have tried for many years to have a baby understand this. When we first entered the door of the Bahçeci Clinic, we were carrying a bunch of documents which summed up the various personal experiences and periods of hope, despair and disappointment we had been through. We brought everything we had with us. We picked the embryos meticulously and implanted them inside, full of sadness. How hard uncertainty is…Those who have experienced it know it well. If the result is negative one month, you try again the next month and time flies. And one day you realize that years have gone by and you’re still in the same vicious cycle. However, when we stepped into the Clinic something was different – we felt a sense of optimism. It would happen that time; yes, we believed that it would happen that time.

They welcomed us warmly and affectionately and as if we were part of their family. Our meetings took place in the same welcoming atmosphere. The schedule was set. Now we were a part of the Bahçeci family. Then the waiting period began. I started to keep a journal as I wanted to remember everything down to the smallest detail. Starting from the first page, I began to write hopeful lines for my “little miracle.” I felt like I was moving closer to my baby with each passing day. Neither the check-ups I had been undergoing, nor the injections I had been receiving bothered me. When I went to the clinic for check-ups, the entire team supported me with the same warmhearted and caring manner. In the end, eggs were gathered and they gave me the good news the next day. Everything was ok.

Then came the day when we were to meet with the little ones. After the transfer, they provided us with photographs of three tiny embryos. I felt the joy of carrying them inside me. We returned home, filled with happiness. But the toughest part was just beginning. A twelve-day waiting period – such a difficult time… You pray day and night because you know everyone had done their best. The rest would be decided by the performance of those tiny embryos. The last two days were really very tough. And then I went to a laboratory near my house for analysis. I received the news at noon the same day. I was pregnant. Yes…Maybe one or both or maybe all three of my little embryos did their part… It was such a great joy! We shared the good news with everyone. Then, 15 days later, we went to the clinic for the check-up and learned that one of my embryos had clung to the uterus.

Following a very comfortable pregnancy, I held my baby in my arms and thought how it was all worth the effort. Here was my little miracle sitting on my lap. When I look at my 4.5 month old son Ahmet, I’m thanking God and would like to thank, first and foremost, Prof. Dr. Mustafa Bahçeci and the Bahçeci Clinic and the German Hospital teams for allowing us to experience this happiness. Today, we are a big and happy family.